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I ran away and came back again
breaking arms and legs in blood
sometimes choking from your anger
you screamed and sometimes raised an eyebrow
you lived when I existed
drank coffee when I liked tea
you bloomed when i faded
but never said goodbye to me
you often forgot about dates
I spoke and you were silent
I dedicated sad stanzas to you
and you haven't even read them
constantly to someone somewhere
you helped a lot
while I was catching my decadence

waking up again today
I realized my air is you
all breaths in and out
exist only if alive
our dreams
you wrung your hands roughly
shouted, not wanting to know
what's going on inside me
and how you want to scream in pain
you scolded me for my tears
that flowed even more like a river
sang words like evil splinters
how the night kills the day with darkness
did not let go and did not let me get closer
shouted "it's better not to be with you now"

essentially for the existence of a physical
I don't need a material "you"
there is air, food and sun
the rest is the cost of the soul
I will sell it to the devil if possible
I'll forget about heaven or hell
or I will give myself for tenderness to any drunk
the poor, whose name is the stench
my body will be covered in mud
my heart will die out without caresses
maybe someone will call me scum
and I'll think how right you are
I was convinced of my insignificance
responding to tenderness with a slap
piercing the back with a knife with a smile
and in addition sharing slaps in the face